Like Clockwork.

Every month around the 27th, I get moody and contemplative. Why, you may ask. My answer, I am not sure. These are just thoughts that enter my mind fleetingly. I choose not to dwell on them because I know now's not the time. I wish I had a year out after university to discover myself. AND TO GET MY DRIVERS LICENSE!!!!

The thoughts that went through my head today:
1. Why do I think the thoughts I think?
2. Does God know that I think these thoughts and if so Does he also know that I condemn some of my own thoughts? i.e. that I am aware and ashamed of some of the silly passing comments I make in my head.
3. Am I wasting my time?
4. Will I achieve all that I want to in the short time I have to live?
5. How and what are my priorities? And Can I say for sure that what I'd imagine them to be are really what would make me happy?
6. Do we have a SUB-sub-conscious mind? And if so, Why and What is it? Reason I ask this is because I always think my thoughts in layers. I'll think something, and simultaneously I'll think shit I shouldn't be thinking that. (basically same point as q2 la.)
7. Do I take God for Granted even though he's at the back of my mind most of the time? Am I thinking of him for the wrong reasons? I.e. to prove something to someone, to belong, to prove something to myself? I do believe in and love God, but are my intentions pure and when will I know if they are?
8. Will being in love with someone across the seas cause me to miss out on experiences I might have had otherwise, and even if I did, would it be for my own good?
9. Where do I truly belong?


Is anyone as lost as I am, I'd like to have a dialogue with someone confused.


As an afterthought, The Answer is CHOCOLaTe! and I don't care what the question is.