Ideal

The showers in halls are not working, and I've just been in the library and to the gym! I stink and feel sticky and I do not know how i'm going to sleep peacefully feeling all icky and gross.
Anyways, today was a marathon study session...10hrs...sat on my ass straight for 5 hrs as well...i'm so proud of myself :) hopefully it all pays off in the end. Loadsa other peeps are still having a good time going out and all that, but I keep forgetting, they don't have 8 exams!

Besides that, haven't really been up to much. Just library, gym and back. highlight of the day is lunch in the afternoon...normally head to ULU for the same old same old...I was craving some cheesy Nacho's from the 'Duck n Dive' but they won't be serving food during easter...bugger. :S

Anyways, today's mental struggle was WHY the hell i chose to be an academic instead of a pretty housewife.

Amrita: " Yeah I'll probably work for a few years and then settle down and have kids"
Anuradha: "Why?"
Amrita: "Oh shit yeah, Why? after all the hours i'm spending in the library now..."

Would be pretty stupid to give it all up after all the hardwork and sacrifice i've made to get this far. But aiyah, how I wanna chill for some of my life as well. From spending 10hrs a day in the library to try and get good grades in university, to spending 10hrs a day in an office trying to earn money to spend in the 2hrs I get off after work to go out before going to bed....where's the punchline?

I could've spent those very hours in the gym, learning how to cook/clean/sew/garden? And trust me, I ain't feminist enought to complain about them being 'surpressive' jobs...Rather, it'd be my ideal lifestyle. Become fit, marry a rich man, get him to buy me a 'small' business, and then run it from the confines of my comfortable mansion. Have loads of kids, become a tai tai, spend time with my lovely ladies playing mah jong or having high tea, throwing parties. Being a friendly socialite. :)

I would find it fulfilling. Finding the time to give back to society at the expense of my husband of course ;)

But we know that's not the way it is, and that's not the way it's going to be so, make the best of it init. Since I made the mistake of going to RGS (the root of the problem) I may as well live up to be being an academic. The least I can do is try...