End of an era.

No longer a student. I can't believe it's finally over. Sigh...
Loving London so much now I don't want to leave yet....
Thankfully I'm coming back...

Just for Arun

One of my favourite people in the whole world....and I mean it. Always there when you need him, always protective (hhmm??) always up for a good time and so damn organised its scary.
I haven't forgotten you!!!
This is my attempt at officially stating in black and white (white and black) that you're my male alter ego, two great minds think alike...most of the time ;)

wait laaah on the 25th then it'll be back to the good old times...:)

relak lah brudder ;)

xxxxx

bleedin' Cockney

One of the good old classic love tunes translated into cockney: Can you guess which song it is?

Sayin' I golden dove ya is not the bloody dickie birds I wanna 'ear from ya it’s not that I want ya not ter say,but if ya only knew ha Ham and Cheesy it would be ter sha me 'a ya Orange Peel more than dickie birds is aw ya 'ave ter do ter make it real then ya wouldn’t 'ave ter say that ya golden dove me cos i’d already know what would ya do if me Horse and Cart was torn in Bo-le Of Glue more than dickie birds ter sha ya Orange Peel that your golden dove for me is real what would ya say if I took those dickie birds away then ya couldn’t make things new just by sayin' I golden dove ya more than dickie birds na i’ve tried ter Rabbit and Pork ter ya and make ya understand all ya 'ave ter do is close your mince pies and just reach aahhht your German Bands and touch me hold me close don’t ever let me Scapa Flow more than dickie birds is aw I ever needed ya ter show then ya wouldn’t 'ave ter say that ya golden dove me cos i’d already know what would ya do if me Horse and Cart was torn in Bo-le Of Glue more than dickie birds ter sha ya Orange Peel that your golden dove for me is real what would ya say if I took those dickie birds away then ya couldn’t make things new just by sayin' I golden dove ya more than dickie birds .

For Lyn's Benefit

Ok, Song change. For the benefit of Lynette, Amrit and my short attention span.

Gnarls Barkley - Crazy

My gym tune...
Check out the video below.

Quick Update:

I'm SO unbelievably bored of studying, my attention span has been whittled down to a mere 5mins. Furthermore, I am no longer able to spell. Evidence being the fact that I spelt Pretentious as pretencious, attention as attenshion, And single as singal in the last week. (A quick redemption, I noticed immediately lah!) My body is aching, aching I tell you. Aching to dance, aching to go shopping, aching to chill in the sun. But more literally, aching from sitting on my ass all day. *sore bum*

I had an ice cream for dessert yesterday. Cornetto Classic.

I have 3 exams next week, 1 the week after (last one yay!), and then I'm leaving for Singapore the week after that! :)

Redbull is addictive. And also very bad for the system. It seems i'm just 'drawn' towards what we're not meant to have :S

I know nothing about the Singapore general elections. But I do know that Tony Blair is in a bit of a pickle at the moment. Blair's sagging rating follows his Labour Party's poor showing in local elections last week, demands that Blair name the date he will step down, questionable campaign finance tactics, the accidental release of people who were to be deported and reports that Deputy Prime Minister John Prescott had a mistress.

Interestingly enough, John Prescott is even more MING than Bill Clinton! And Tracy Temple has a pornstar-ish ring to it, coupled with the fact that she's about 4times better looking than Monica Lewinsky :S. The ingredients on their own are much spicier for a scandal, but put together, turned out out to be a bit bland. The English don't seem to get excited enough about 'scandal'. They'd rather find out what colour undies the lovely Prince William wore last Thursday instead.

Anyways, at least she'll be forfeiting any profits made by selling her story to a newspaper to help "deter others in public employ".

Won't be hearing any more such scandals in the near future I don't think...where's Rebecca Loos disappeared to by the way?

Lady Sovereign

I'm so into this track. It isn't exactly 'good music' but there's something about this chick that I like. haha i'm turning in a Chav....bring on the burbeeerrry inneeet!!

Things of Interest I have learnt

1. Don't use random 'Boots' brand (the UK pharmaceutical) facewashes. I changed from Clean&Clear facewash to WitchTree facewash, and had to learn the hard way.

2. Don't stress out before exams because placing too high expectations on a paper only makes dealing with it after worse.

3. Tesco's Finest Microwaveable dinners actually taste like real chicken.

4. Amazon.com is a great way to buy CD's. New or Used.

5. Gandhi and his comitment to Satyagraha. Satya is Sanskrit for Truth, and Agraha is used to describe an effort, endeavor. The term itself may be construed to mean any effort to discover, discern, obtain or apply Truth.

'In the application of Satyagraha, I discovered, in the earliest stages, that pursuit of Truth did not admit of violence being inflicted on one's opponent, but that he must be weaned from error by patience and sympathy. For, what appears to be truth to the one may appear to be error to the other. And patience means self-suffering. So the doctrine came to mean vindication of Truth, not by infliction of suffering on the opponent but one's own self.' Gandhi.

6. The sun really does make people smile.

7. The biggest reason for arguments nowadays, whether big or small, is due to the EGO. Everyone doesn't like accepting that they may actually be wrong. If humans had always thought we were right, we wouldn't have discovered electricity, intelligent systems, and everything else basically!

8. Syed and Michelle from the Apprentice have 'something going on' according to Heat magazine...wooooot????

9. There is a major loophole in the insurance of Limited Liability within the Legal framework, which can result in the 'Looting of Society'. I.e. Front loading revenues, Backloading costs and liquidating in the interim.

10. Going to the Gym is GrEaT! but i've been lazy and haven't been in a few days...

Better

thanks guys...so sweet! I still hate exams, but i'm feeling alot better coz at least one of papers went decently well.
Funny thing was I was in such a sour mood in the morning before the paper coz of the mishaps from the previous day. So I decided to just take it easy, and not bother doing any last minute cramming or stressing etc. I slept late, watched a couple of episodes of the Simpsons, went on Facebook and Friendster etc etc. So the time passed, and finally I realised I'd better leave. Basically made it to the tube station at 2pm (my exam was starting at 2.30pm) and realised that the trains had been delayed!!! Ok easy option, take a taxi right? But no, just before entering the tube station I'd tried to withdraw money and realised that my Dad had forgotten to transfer money. Very Good. Standing in the Tube station, trains delayed, no money, on the way to an exam. I was actually laughing to myself thinking What on Earth could go wrong next. But THANKFULLY!!! everything was smooth sailing after that. Paper went well... I came home, had a brilliant evening with the boys, Randeep and Rahul. AND the SuN came out today...haha I couldn't have been happier while having my lunch in the park and then Again my Dessert in the park after dinner...
London just seems like a whole different city when the sun is out. EVERYONE is out on the streets, sitting in the parks...but then I had to go to the library again...haha so lousy.
I hope everybody's studying...I've already started plotting my return to the decadent lifestyle of bacchanalian bakwaas!!! woohooo (i.e. my partying plans) I foresee some sentosa beaching in the near future....


Anyways here's some pics from the last couple of days...

Rant

Omg what the hell is wrong with me or Uni or my brain or what I DON'T know. I'm so disappointed in myself and the system and just everything in general.

Basically, I am incapable of doing well in exams. I can't write a goddamn decent essay. I can't do a math problem. Nothing. And all this ON TOP of spending hours in the library and countless nights in my room. I don't get it. I've given it my all. Ive really tried hard to understand the material, memorise it even, know it inside out. And I KNOW that I know it. But why can't I seem to get that across on paper. Why can't I seem to prove it to anyone but myself. It's so frustrating. I don't understand why it just doens't go in my favour, why it has to be so tough.
I mean, what is the point of putting in so much effort when the rewards seem so bleak, and the chances of doing well are so slim. I'd much rather mess about and say oh shit, i couldv'e done better if I studied (false hope that i'm actually capable) rather than trying my darndest and ending up with some measly grade (proof that i'm Not capable).
haiyah, but i guess the one consolation is that I have tried my best this year, and no one can take that away from me. Everything happens for a reason. Even if i have been studying the wrong way, or haven't mastered the art of utilising my God Given Potential, at least I think I've done the best I can with the means which I am aware of. We all get what we deserve.

This won't be the end of the world, maybe it'll open my eyes to other paths. Maybe it's trying to tell me that this isnt' my calling and I should expand my horizons and try to figure out what it is.
I don't know what to expect anymore. I don't know if I'll do well for a paper or not. I don't know what I'm meant to know and when i'm meant to apply it. I don'tknow what will happen if I stop bothering. I don't know if i'll still have my job. I don't know if i'll be able to deal with my results. I have expectations of myself, and more often than not I meet them, but this year it just seems so impossible.
I thought I was going to rape these papers. Instead they pulled out a gun in self defense and shot me square in the forehead, twice.

So much for hardwork being rewarded.

Maybe it's Karma.