Why We Do The Things We Do.

why we do the things we do.

Because we were taught to.
Because we want to learn.
Because we try to rebel.
Because we can't help but conform.

Because for stability we pray.
Because we live life day by day.

Because we think life is too short.
Because we know where in life we belong.
Because we want to prove a point right.
Because we want to prove a point wrong.

Because we want to be someone we're not
Because we're happy with what we've got.

Because we fear the unknown.
Because we learn from our mistakes.
Because we count our blessings.
Because we're ready to raise the stakes.

Because we're blinded by what people expect.
Because we simply have some self respect.

Because we give to take.
Because we take to give.
Because we live to love
Because we love to live.

Basic HTML

What better way to kick start my questionable awareness than by discussing Basic HTML. Stemming from my last post, the first thing that confuzzled me about blogging was my inability to understand how to improve the aesthetic of my site. In addition to substance, what makes any blog appealing is the overall presentation. The background, fonts or any stricking 'logo' or defining graphic used to add an element of uniqueness, (Is uniquity a word?) are what stand out the most. I've spent hours trying to analyse, dissect and reassembly the 'Template' of my blog, and have only got so far as to what you see now, i.e. Changing the colour of my font and background!

I rate those of you (namely Lynette and Feips) for doing an excellent job on redesigning your sites and urge you to offer any advice if you have any!

In my attempt to offer some sort of proactive approach to rectifying my situation, I did the following:

1. Looked up random Basic HTML sites:
- http://www.pageresource.com/html/basic.htm
- http://www.killersites.com/videoTutorials/Tutorial_WebDesign/webDesign.jsp

2. Borrowed a booked from a friend: HTML For The World Wide Web (very easy to read!)

3. Begged anyone with half an inkling to educate me (thanks for nothing :P)

End Product: NOTHING on my blog has changed, but I don't really have any incentive to change it. I think it's nice and simple the way it is, ALTHO I would love to know who to insert a unique graphic/logo/banner...ideas anyone?

Let's try this again

Ok, everyone starts writing a blog with some sort of intention in mind. Either to update, lament, educate, irritate or simply procrastinate. Then, they get sucked into the ideal of having the best blog, the one that will win the hearts, or at least the attention of as many readers as possible. Designs, content, publicity stunts, shock tactics, pics, links..etc. etc. No one in the world starts a blog for their own personal 'diary-writing therapy' and cataloging of thoughts. I started a blog because I was crap in keeping in touch with people, and felt it'd be a good way to update my mates now and again. Then, my life became so monotonous and boring that I started sharing random 'points of view' and retarded attempts at being intellectual (why I even tried I do not know), then it turned to turmultuous times of whinging, sobbing, ranting, raving and cursing anything that went wrong in my life and whoever was withing at least 10miles of the scene of destruction, innocent passerbys' included (alot of these posts were never published I might add).
However, after much thought, growth and boredom, I reckoned the best I could offer in a blog is myself. And hopefully, bare my soul as a confused girl. I'd always thought that I was a Woman of the World and that I had a lot to offer to everyone in terms of advise and practical knowledge. But with the increasing number of people I've met in my life, and the numerous experiences where I've been left standing on the sidelines holding a big question mark above my head, I realised that I know very little. About anything and everything. A jack of all trades, a master of none. So I guess I started of on the right foot when I started this blog as per the title, but digressed a little till now. I now welcome you back to The Fake Sound of Progress.

Moving forward, I shall discuss all my issues in life that stemmed from not knowing what to do. And in a more productive sense, (if indeed someone shows me the light), what steps to take to get around it. I am sure there are alot of girlies (and boyies) out there that need some other poor blur soul to relate to, or work with, to get to where they want to be. I've thought long and hard (that is such a lie, i've thought long, but never hard) about the forums I may want to join to try and partake in intellectual discussions about life and love and religion and HTML and BattlestarGalactica and Breakbeats and Spanish and How to Make the Best Sambal Chicken Fried Rice, ended up never getting around to doing any of it. So, I thought, WHY NOT start my own forum? A forum among those who's opinions I actually care about, and what will hopefully extend to their circles of confused souls and so on and so forth and eventually we can create a snowballing effect of blurness and create the biggest Sotong in the World! What a wonderful experiment, like Chinese Whispers, but in this case it'd be known as 'huh, say again?'

But bottom line, let's see if this 'era' lasts...

Another amazingly delayed post

Wow, it's been forever since I posted and everyone has probably stopped checking this site for updates. But I've been so busy with work and life, and barely had any time to think let alone contemplate and blog. I reckon it's a good sign when blogs are not updated, i.e. to say, blogging is a reflection of boredom for some (at least in my case it is!).

Anyways, quick updates of the recent past:

- Working my ass off on a daily basis, the hours are long and the work load is heavy, but at least the days pass fast and I learn new things all the time. I like the responsibility they've given me although the lack of structure in certain things and a solid training when I started makes me feel like i'm standing on shaky ground sometimes. When do we begin to realise what our calling in life is if we haven't already? I know I could do this for a couple of years, but it's time for me to set some new goals to work towards. That's the part I'm finding slightly tricky...

- Been getting up to some new activities, recently been going for Kickboxing classes, Pilates, Go-karting, and currently planning a snowboarding trip (possibly) for early next year.

- Getting closer to people I 'neglected' during university because I was so caught up with my course etc. Sad truth is, all my closest girlfriends left the country...so now i'm left dealing with friendships with guys. Sometimes it's just not the same...

- 'Lost' one of my favourite people because she went back to Singapore/Cairo. Farzina, if you read this I really miss you!!! London's just not the same without your familiarity around. I'm really glad that you're doing so well in Cairo though. When did you realise that journalism was your calling btw? [ooh and i like your web portfolio thing!]

- Met up with another one of my favourite people last week. Carole Yang, who I haven't spoken to in ages but enjoyed every minute with when we met up. It's amazing how much I realised/learnt about the similar situations we are/were going through! In that respect it was really nice to talk to someone who understood my situation and could truly sympathise.
I wonder if we'll be the same with our Kids in the future...

- Been spending Waaay too much money on shopping, every week I have to buy a new piece of furniture/clothing/make-up/accesory...anything you name it! However, my wardrobe is looking quite in Vogue at the moment, altho I currently have a very strange quote unquote Retro hairstyle now...I can't figure it out myself.

- Christmas Office Party for the whole of the the Operations Technology and Finance Division is this Thursday, and it's going to be a blast! I've bought a new (yes expensive) dress from Coast and need to get it altered by Thursday! aahhh adrenaline rush...if not safety pins need to be bought. I'll try to get around to taking photos, and actually uploading them so you guys can see what my retro haircut is all about.


- On a not so happy note, i don't think Amrit will be coming to visit me in London anymore. It was the one thing i was soooo looking forward too. But I completely understand where he's coming from. We'll just have to find another way of meeting each other. Can you believe its been over 5 months now!

- Still haven't gotten around to planning my life goals out.

- Oh yeah, and most importantly, this will be the first xmas /NYE that i won't be spending in Singapore with the family. I love Singapore during December, all the decorations/parties/dinners/shopping/clubbing/people home on holiday...just everything. Very Sad :( Everyone think of me okay!!!

Reminders:

1. Financial Planning
2. Sign up for Spanish
3. Drivers Licence
4. Go on Skii Holiday
5. Kick someones ASSSSS in kickboxing woohoo haiyah! (I love it!)
6. Call Teri!!!!
7. do something about updating your blog
8. Recommend people to study Computer Science at university. It is the way to go...if you do not understand why, please ask and I will explain.

Getting colder

There's nothing in particular I want to blog about today. Just chilling out in my room after a rainy day of shopping and not doing much. Argos on edgware road is pathetic, they don't have anything in stock so I didnt' get to buy new bedsheets. However, thankfully the woolworths next door had a beautiful faux fur chocolate throw that was very affordable, yet pricey enough to satisfy my unquenchable thirst for designer home ware. It looks like numerous animals have died and come to furniture heaven in my room what with the sheepskin rug from ikea and furry couch.

The weather's taken a turn for the worse and I fear that lovely summer is now approaching dusk. No more out door pub evenings or al fresco dinners. No more lovely summer dresses or men running around in shorts. No more leaving the house in nothing but a denim skirt and slippers. Which reminds me, I need to buy new boots. At least, I've got something to look forward to doing next weekend now.

The transition to working life was alright intially, but when you realise you've fallen into such a monotonous routine, the loss of freedom makes you bitter. I actually don't mind the idea of work, but only if I truly enjoyed it. One thing I've realised is that i really am a whore for gratitude and appreciation. I love hearing I've done a good job, esp if I've put effort in. This really won't work in my favour in the business world because everyone is so competitive, at least I know this. Anyways, the aim of the game is to realise that the managment is quite screwed up and that I shall be able to use this knowledge to put myself out there and make the changes that need to be made for the greater good of the team. Slowly, but surely, I am going to become such an integral part of this team that they'll fighting to keep me around...But, in the mean time, the aim is to give up coffee.

Things to do:
Get drivers license
Join dance class
Look into starting art again
Tend to my balcony garden
STOP BUYING HOUSEHOLD STUFF
download more music
go on holiday
Cook.
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Ask landlord if I can get a cat

Preferably one that looks like this.






Peace out